this link...

<click here> 8 things to remember when everything goes wrong.

loved every bit of it.

trying

yep.

december 4th

You need only worry about what is 

in front of you right now... 

nothing else exists.

meditation

***

Feeling pain in my heart, I breathe in.

Suffering from the pain in my heart, I breathe out.

Feeling my heart breaking, I breathe in.
Feeling as if my heart will break in two, I breathe out.

Feeling the pain is too great to live with, I breathe in.
Feeling as if the pain is going to swallow me up, I breathe out.

Feeling hurt, I breathe in.
Finding hurt where I want love, I breathe out.

Feeling frustration and anger, I breathe in.
Feeling frustration and anger boiling inside, I breathe out.

Wanting things to be different, I breathe in.
Wanting to change him/her, I breathe out.

Wanting attention, I breathe in.
Craving attention, I breathe out.

Wanting gentle touch, I breathe in.
Wanting loving touch, I breathe out.

Feeling I am not good enough, I breathe in.
Seeing nothing good about me, I breath out.

Feeling shame about my body, I breathe in.
Feeling that I am unlovable, I breathe out.

Feeling that no one loves me, I breathe in.
Suffering from not feeling loved, I breathe out.

Feeling frustration, I breathe in.
Feeling fear, I breathe out.

Being afraid that nothing will ever change, I breathe in.
Wanting love in my life, I breathe out.

Feeling fear that I will not have what I want, I breathe in.
Feeling fear and anxiety, I breathe out.

Noticing that I am OK, I breathe in.
Noticing that I am OK, I breathe out.

***

www.getrelationshipsright.com/dealingwithheartache

some pictures - oct & nov

Hill Airforce Base

fall hike with Jeff

Luke- spinning wool - This is the Place field trip

fall break - Pioneer Park

The Civil War (i mean, Halloween)

T h a n k s g i v i n g

'tis hard though.

just them being them

Luke…

I know what butt town would look like – everywhere would be butts. The people would look like butts and the news would all be butts.

(me, after giving him a sucker): What do you say?
him: I don’t want to talk right now. I love you for giving me this sucker, but I don’t want to talk.

I don’t want a birthday party because all you do is sit there and do randomly boring stuff.

Commercials and the sun are my worst enemies.

Can you make my hair fancy tomorrow?

Later…

me: Luke, mikey is coming over.

him: And you’re going to make me look handsome, right?

You get cooler when you’re nicer. If you’re nice, you’re cool.

(at Christmas-time): It would be funny if on the computer I typed in, ‘luke hanson’s presents for Christmas’. 

Noah I'm so mad at you that I'm not getting you jam toast anymore. and I'm ignoring you forever today.

If you have spiky hair, you’re cool, and if you have hair brushed to the side then you’re handsome. I’m handsome.

(the night before Valentines day): mom- do you know my favorite time? it's when I go to sleep tonight and then I get to wake up tomorrow and go to school and give my cards to everyone. and sleeping is kind of comfy.

What do you call a banana you put in a blender?

A blanana.

(to his friend): I'm a natural artist, and a master builder of legos.

I wish we didn’t have to cut my hair because I really, really, really like my mullet. It’s my favorite type of hairstyle.

Does every kid in the universe go to school?

You know one reason why I don't like chester? because I was eating a blueberry muffin and I saw his throw-up, and it made me throw-up.

mom- I might have saw noah’s butt crack while he was running.

Noah...

Gum is like an air freshener in your mouth, right?

I balanced for 60 seconds on the ball! Post it on facebook to one of your friends.

me: Why is your room such a mess?

him: Because it’s what we do.. make messes.

You should get a therapist to help you not be on the computer so much.

me: my tummy hurts.

him: who cares. I don’t.

mom, the world is a bird’s toilet, right?

If I had a phone it would only call home or 911. otherwise it would be too overwhelming.

me: What’s something that would be good to put in your lunch?

him: All the candy you can afford.

Deep thought he made up:

If you have a laser eye, you shouldn't shoot it too far, because then it would go around the world and hit you.

My favorite direction is north, because of the north pole; our big window faces north; and my name starts with ‘no’.

him: Chevys rule and fords drool.

me: What does it mean that they drool?

him: It means that I hate fords.

Why is it called mt. Rushmore?

Because people want to RUSH to it!

noah: Hey luke- show me your muscles.

luke: No- that’s what a weird person would do.

noah: Ok then I’m weird, because LOOK. (shows luke his muscles.)

me: Who’s your favorite girl in your class?

him: That’s classified.

mom- if I ever need to know your phone number I can just look at chester’s name tag.

Before you put pictures of me on facebook will you have me approve of it first?

I’ll be a normal kid if you be a normal adult.

What did luke skywalker say to darth vader on father's day?

I would have written you a card but you chopped off my writing hand.

If I had a dollar for every time he's thrown a fit like that for that long, we'd live in a mansion right now. (during one of luke's tantrums)

mom will you give us money for walking , talking, and breathing?

such fun little guys.

luke's special fridge reminder notes

(This is what ensues when luke gets money for his (half) birthday and 

I let him go on an earning spree. thank goodness we're done with that.)

 mom will take us to toys r us soon.

(that's a set of army/military vehicles.)

 mom will call aunt Jeni and ask her when she is 

going to give me my half-birthday present.

(LOL.)

 mom will take me to get a Cars toy tomorrow.

 mom owes luke $1.50.

 (random tank)

you will take me to walmart or toys r us tomorrow.

 mom will get out of bed soon.

(that's my nightstand, me in my bed, and me awake.)

mom will take me to Smith's to get one more Cars toy.

(he had pretty much every store covered except target.)

Blue Lemon

Craft Lake City '14

this quote

We have not the reverent feeling 

for the rainbow that the savage has, 

because we know how it is made. 

We have lost as much as we gained 

by prying into that matter. 

- A Tramp Abroad

haircuts!

all ready for school-

so glad that's over with.

luke | swing | leaves | light